Just Bethany :)

Well, it’s just about official.  School starts on Monday, I can’t believe it, I’m finally getting back.  This time feels so much different than my other attempts of school, I know what I want to do, I have a goal, and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.  I am thrilled to be going back and to be working on my Journalism degree.

I have blogged about hockey for nearly a year now, I can see my writing improving every single day that I write.  I mean you look at my earlier entries, and you can tell a major difference in what I write now.  That feels like an accomplishment to me, but you know, it’s only me.

There have been some set backs in my back to school quest.  First of all, I quit my job at the bank, it was stressful and there was no way I would be able to go to school while I was still working there.  There was never a definite time that I would get off, and I would not have any me time, and that’s something that I have to have.  I am working my catering job and I have such an amazing boss, who is so helpful and understanding with school and my life.  Then, there’s my dad.  My dad and my mom divorced when I was 17.  My dad hasn’t been the same since, he’s a different person, I feel uncomfortable around him.  Growing up I was a daddy’s girl, I could tell him anything and could go to him for anything, these days I dread calling him, I never visit him, and well, it’s not my fault.  He has separated himself from my family,  that’s on him.  Anyway, I called him to ask him for money for my school books.  Keep in mind, I haven’t asked him for money since 2003.  He then began to give me excuses as to why he couldn’t, now trust me, I understand financial problems very well, but his main excuse to me was, well I am trying to help Pat out.  Pat is a nearly 100 year old woman that he met when my parents got divorced.  Anyway, Pat is not his family, but I am, and he can help her but not me.  It seems a little messed up.  Anyway, I just needed to vent.  Dad, if you do read this, you need to realize who your family is and start being there for them.  There will be a time when you need Matt and I, if you keep acting the way you have been recently, you won’t have any family left.